For the past few weeks ever since school has let out, I have been on tenterhooks waiting anxiously for the grades to be available on line. It’s not really the usual run-of-the-mill worry over grades. I do admit I am sort of Grade Conscious but the inclination to be so is usually tempered by my indolence a.k.a I always absent myself from class. That in itself would not have been so bad except that on those days that I chose to be absent…there’s usually one quiz or other that I end up missing…

And the whole point of why it’s a bad thing boils down to the annoying fact that missed quizzes cannot be made up – according to some professors (though there are those who break this so-called educator’s maxim and for that and to them, I shall be eternally grateful).

Anyway, I was really pretty scared that I would fail a couple of my classes. After all, I was late in getting to school at the start of the second semester for two weeks or so and of course, my ever sporadic absences that unintentionally coincide with surprise quizzes…

My prelim grade for English (Speech) was very low…beyond low actually it’s the lowest grade I’ve ever got in my entire life. When I heard the professor inform me of my standing in her class, I was stunned into speechlessness (pun slightly intended) and was saved from bawling simply because I seemed to have acquired an armor of indifference or perhaps it was the lateness of my reflex reaction…I did manage to get back to my seat and sit down though. I think the direness of my situation hit me on my way home. I broke down and told my parents of this horrendously low grade I’ve gotten but I cheered myself up and thought positive things like… “I can do this…there’s still time…” though inside I was hysterical and tearing my hair out, pretty sure that there was no way in Hades that I’d be able to pass.

And then of course add to that the fact that this certain other professor is absolutely clueless when it comes to sharing information and teaching those less inclined to be fascinated by the inner workings of the human body.

Long story short, I Love God! I was able to pass all my subjects against the odds. Well, I did get an INC (Incomplete) grade in Rizal but that’s because I didn’t have the permit yet when I took the final examinations for that subject and all I have to do is talk to my professor and everything will be alright and its as if my INC never happened.

I dislike feeling unsure about the status of my academics, I hate worrying over it and I will so try to do better next time because all the anxiety drives me crazy. That’s the set goal next year – when you are only allowed one failure – to get as high a grade point average as possible and to not fail a subject. I just hope God continues to answer my prayers…